maybe, again.

I get covid and lay in bed for days, reading “bad fiction.” I lean into the idleness, although I still sweep the floors and fight with the long strings of hair I leave behind. My bed is too comfortable and my body is this vessel of infection. 

Raw Wood

My house is a mess
The kind you keep
When you don't have guests
One day I'll fix it right

-John Vanderslice

i·dle

ˈīdl/

adjective

adjective: idle

1. 1.

   (esp. of a machine or factory) not active or in use.

   
   

   • (of a person) not working; unemployed.

     
     
   • (of a person) avoiding work; lazy.

     
     
   • (of time) characterized by inaction or absence of significant activity.

     
     

     
     
   • (of money) held in cash or in accounts paying no interest.
2. 2.

   without purpose or effect; pointless.

   "

   • (esp. of a threat or boast) without foundation.

     
     

verb

1. (of a person) spend time doing nothing; be idle.

   "

   • move aimlessly or lazily.

     
     
   • (of an engine) run slowly while disconnected from a load or out of gear.

     
     
   • cause (an engine) to idle.

     
     
   • take out of use or employment.

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Sometimes i fear that if left to my own devices i would just sleep all day.

I've wasted my afternoon lingering on inconsequential subjects.
But tomorrow will be different. This hangover will lift.
I will make my bed. Run that extra mile. And scrub my kitchen tiles.
I will apologize because I know I am not at my best.

winter etc.

Eyes wide open. Or as open as they can get.

 

Some weekends are made for long wintery walks.